I'll have physically been back in my "home" country Canada for 4 months. We did move to a new city, in a new province, to us, despite my having had a past experience with living here, I'm saying its new. I had to approach this like I had the last two moves that this was a "new" country move as we had on the previous occassions.
The actual moving process began around February, the suggestion which unleashed the resistance vibe, the stress which complimented the resistance, which was the tossing around of the idea etc., leading up to the packing and follow through.
I'd love to say that the "stress" part of the move was fluctuating and that the resistance to the move diminished as we moved forward. Yet, when your heels are dug into the ground, as mentioned in the previous post, the energy around the move had a resistance vibeage and so to answer my own question, "Are we home yet?", the answer is No.
One would think that moving to Europe, where we were foreign to the culture, language and pretty much everything would have been more difficult than coming home.
One may think that leaving a foreign culture and language and landing in an English speaking country would have been easier, well except for the whole driving on the wrong side of the road business (LOL)!
One could think that returning "home", would be the easiest of peasiest...No visas to worry about applying for, no translation issues, no health care dramas, no applications to buy a home process. One may be inclined to think we would simply slot back in where we left off.
We arrived "unsettled".
Partly because I believe there were expectations, both self-imposed and collective that were not aligned with the "new city/new province" actuality.
In reflection I can see the strong contrast between: everything is new and fresh versus picking up where we left off. Those two vibes are in contradiction and we can not have it both ways; and trying to do so adds a great deal more pressure to an already dynamic situation.
Inhale.........Exhale..........Inhale........Exhale.........Inhale.....Exhale.......
My approach was simplistic: Start.
Start by finding our way to the grocery store then back.
Start by finding our way to the shopping center and back.
Start by buying a coat.
Start by finding some comfort.
Start by reconnecting when and how we can.
Starting from where we were and working out from there. Doing what we could with what we had and establishing our new "home base".
There is a re-calibration of your set point as you release what your normal was and create what your normal will be. Its building a new foundation.
To answer the question "Are we home yet?" My answer would be, "We are closer to it everyday."
Partly because I believe there were expectations, both self-imposed and collective that were not aligned with the "new city/new province" actuality.
In reflection I can see the strong contrast between: everything is new and fresh versus picking up where we left off. Those two vibes are in contradiction and we can not have it both ways; and trying to do so adds a great deal more pressure to an already dynamic situation.
Inhale.........Exhale..........Inhale........Exhale.........Inhale.....Exhale.......
My approach was simplistic: Start.
Start by finding our way to the grocery store then back.
Start by finding our way to the shopping center and back.
Start by buying a coat.
Start by finding some comfort.
Start by reconnecting when and how we can.
Starting from where we were and working out from there. Doing what we could with what we had and establishing our new "home base".
There is a re-calibration of your set point as you release what your normal was and create what your normal will be. Its building a new foundation.
To answer the question "Are we home yet?" My answer would be, "We are closer to it everyday."
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