I’m curious if anyone had the image of me (or of yourself)
grabbing your High School yearbook, a photo album, or address book and flipping
through it as if you were looking at mug shots on a television cop show. You know, turning page after page trying to
pick out the perp who did the crime so they could do the time.
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| Credit: Reposted from Facebook from Project Forgive |
That was not the case.
I didn’t have to look into the archives, browse facebook or any other
place to find who I needed to forgive. I
only had to look in the mirror.
Yes, my list of who I needed to forgive included only one
person, and that person is ME.
When I really sat and let the idea of choosing forgiveness
sink in, I admit that a few people came to mind that I would benefit
from letting go; however I kept coming back to the common denominator and I was
it.
It became abundantly clear that if someone in my life and
ecosystem had done or said something that was hurtful, fearful or angry that I
reacted to, they were responsible for the words or actions; however I am wholly
responsible for holding onto the feelings of those words or actions elicited in me.
I am the one who created a space in which to hold onto that
moment, that comment, that whatever.
Therefore the person I most need to forgive is me.
As for my list of “what’s” and the feelings associated; now
that list is the opposite of short.
That list includes beliefs, doubts, fears, shame,
annoyances, and a number of “shoulds,” that others may have provided
the seed for, assisted or supported me in creating, but again, I am the one responsible for allowing
them to take root and take up space.
Day Two: Emotional Richter
Scale
I’ve decided to take my list and allocate on a scale of 10
where my feelings are vibrating at.
My intention is to get to Neutral which in this case is 0.
The scale of 1-10 is varying degrees of attachment to the
emotion, and my personality draws me to starting to work with the double
digits; however I’m choosing a more gentle approach.
I’m going to allow myself to sit with my list and associate
my Richter Scale Values and create a foundation from which I will move forward from for the balance of the month.
Releasing the Clench and Sending myself (and all) Lovingkindness…
